We all know those Christians, homes & blogs. Full of light. Clean. With wisps of color.
I salute you.
But no matter how hard I try (not that I am saying that I’m trying most days, cuz I kinda like who I am)…I am NOT a light and wispy Christian. Nor am I a light and wispy Christian blogger.
I’m bold. I’m brash. Sometimes I cuss (but not online because I can edit it out).
You know that shirt that says, “I love Jesus, but I cuss a little.”
I don’t like it.
But I WOULD wear a shirt that says, “I love Jesus, but I cuss a little, but I really wish I didn’t and I’m trying really hard to stop.”
My blog is colorful and dark. If you’ve been with me since the early days, you’ll remember it was really dark.
My favorite desserts are rich and creamy like Peanut Butter Chocolate Cheesecake. I like my coffee strong.
If you walk into my house, you’ll see that my walls are dark maroon and teal. My bedroom is charcoal gray.
I have to constantly fight the desire when I walk into Target to not conform to the norm, because what’s trendy looks so “neat and tidy.” While my eclectic ways look so messy and random. Books on my shelves aren’t color-coordinated. In fact, I’m lucky if they are actually on the shelf and not in a huge stack under my bed. On my piano. And my banister.
I don’t wear Kendra Scott jewelry…I wear vintage and stuff I find at Goodwill (and my kid’s throw-aways that for some reason I’ve decided are cool).
I’m friends with all the Christian hipsters at church, but I’m not one.
I head cover. And since I’m in Austin, Texas, people usually think there are dreadlocks underneath and are slightly disappointed to know that I do it for religious reasons.
I drink Starbucks, so conservatives think I’m consortin’ with the devil, but I voted for Trump, so liberals think I’m an idiot. My husband and I talk about the Nephlim, the New World Order, and the Illuminati.
I have too many kids for my minivan, but not enough kids for a church van.
Honestly, most days I feel like I’m sitting on the fence between two worlds that don’t really know what to do with me.
And I want to fit in…well, at least sometimes.
I want my blog to be “white and wispy” because then I could write silly little posts titled “What My Cat and Jesus Have in Common” and get a million page views simply because the picture I chose looks trendy, but instead I write posts about whether a Christian should be on welfare and get zero. (Okay, Whiney-MacWhinerson…poor little blogger……Oh, yeah, did I mention I’m a HUGE fan of sarcasm?)
But for some reason God made me colorful.
He didn’t make me white and wispy.
Are you fighting your natural bend too?
Are you like me? Fighting the way God made you to be?
I love the funky person I am, but sometimes if I start comparing I start seeing all the places THEY EXCEL and all the places I FAIL.
She’s so “minimalist” and my house is so “cozy” (aka cluttered).
Her kids always look like a Hollister ad, mine are a hodge podge of pajama bottoms, swimsuit tops and yesterday’s tights.
My spiritual life is scary. I feel God calling me to prophesy in church, talk about my dreams on YouTube and pray with people on the street. There are no book signings or speaking gigs linked with a best-selling Bible study in my near future.
Her blog is so pretty and posh…mine looks like Toys R Us threw up on it.
But, the other day I noticed that I tend to walk around criticizing myself WAY more than I pat myself on the back.
Could this be part of the problem AND part of the solution?
Recognize the Enemy’s Voice
The Bible says that the Devil is the accuser. But YOU have the ability to stop His words from sinking in.
We need to recognize this inner-critic…and then shut it up!
Am I right?
If you find that your mind is accusing you of being too different or not good enough, that’s not God…that’s the enemy. Recognize it at such!
Jesus, when faced with Satan’s lies, turned around to Peter and said,
Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap to me. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, not from God’s. Matt 16:23
ENJOYING YOUR GOD-GIVEN BEAUTY
Retraining your brain to make new neural pathways takes effort including:
- positive emotion
- visualization (Proverbs 23:7)
Ask God to point out things to you that HE enjoys about your personality.
Maybe even pick up a book about the benefits of being different. Or put up scriptures focused on how you are made uniquely by God and for his purpose.
I personally need to vocalize how absolutely freaking amazing I am.
I need to be like my 9-year-old daughter who quite literally walks around the house flipping her hair while saying, “Introducing, the Awesome Princess Naomi!” (Seriously…this just happened.)
Scriptures About Our Differences
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. Psalm 139:14 (NLT)
God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. 1 Peter 4:10-11 (NLT)
The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. So it is with the body of Christ…If the whole body were an eye, how would you hear? Or if your whole body were an ear, how would you smell anything? 1 Co 12: 12 & 17 (NLT)
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart. Jeremiah 1:4-5 (NIV)